Slowly ticking...
5 years, 54 months and 9 days. It feels like our match day is that far away.When we started the process, the timeline was 12-14 months for the wait time between our LID and match day. 12 months is only 9 days away, and if the referrals remain on the track they are on today, that would mean a wait of 10 years. Nope, not a typo - TEN years.
So, this is why I haven't posted to our blog for several months. I have remained hopeful for change in the amount of time it is taking the CCAA to match waiting families to their children. Today, I am having a pity party. What caused this sudden reaction? I've been distracted with so much since March - some intentional, some not... and yesterday, I received an email from our agency with what they call "Family Support Packets". There is a lot of information regarding what we should expect on Match Day, travel etc... and I realized that our timeline is so extremely indefinite, that I, too, have become detached from the reality that we will have our child at the end of this long journey.
Tomorrow will be a better day - I won't allow myself to stay in "this place" for long. Tonight, I think I will go into our baby girl's nursery (which by the way hasn't been set up since our recent move - that is another story for another day) and spend some time there. I almost feel like I am experiencing grief for a loss ... again.
Tomorrow will be a better day.
